Originally, I was going to avoid doing one of these. The slightly cringeworthy yearly roundup, the list of resolutions I will (definitely not) stick to and a soppy summary of what I have learnt. Although I want to avoid all three, it is probably inevitable that a few of those will creep into this post – I am horribly emotional at this time of year. Last night’s Eastenders? Weeped.
Anyone who has Facebook will have seen the copious amounts of statuses that reflect on the past year; most of mine paid a massive tribute to how amazing it was, how 2014 has been ‘the one’ and with slight pessimism of how it could possibly be topped in 2015. My feelings, however, are definitely firmly on the other foot. Sure, 2014 has been an adventurous year for myself, but it has also been a challenging one. I lived in 4 different flats, dealt with a number of twats and looked at myself too many times in the mirror and thought ‘What am I actually doing?’
For me, 2014 was the year of change; the year of uncertainty and the year of trial and error.
I re-started my blog, despite the fierce competition these days – and within a matter of months, worked with some great fashion names. I quit my job and rode the unemployment wagon for longer than I wanted – but the free time allowed me to focus on starting a business. I faced a lot of financial difficulty, due to my own spending habits and inability to save – only for it to strengthen my belief of how friends really are the family you choose.
Instead of being a Class-A moaner, I’ve also learnt that winging will not be the answer to your problems (though it did get me Fish and Chips last night, thanks Will). Things don’t come handed to you on a plate and unfortunately there are some harsh realities that you learn to accept – people will fizzle out of your life, through change of circumstance or lack of conversation. Nothing is easy; and those things that are, are quickly replaced. Life is short and more precious than you realise; everything and everyone has an expiry date. Don’t wait until things have gone off to make the most of them. And your problems? They are important – whether it’s a strange lump, a broken heart or an unexpected bill. Face things head on.
My ‘it will always work out in the end’ view on life is sometimes criticised as irresponsible and lacking in structure, but I stick by it and will continue to follow my own personal mantras for the entirety of this year. If you don’t believe in yourself, you make it hugely difficult for anyone else to.